Let's go!!!!

Something that I totally underestimated is saying goodbye to everyone and especially my family and even more to saying goodbye to Maerle. From January to March I had virtually no contact with anyone outside of work. Everything was still fresh, a lot had happened and many people around me still need the time to realize that a real change has taken place in me. Something I understand completely by the way. I have tried to change myself so many times but eventually failed to do so time and again so that the trust is gone by now, that is only logical.

The contact between Maerle and me has been really difficult for a number of months, but at all costs we wanted to say goodbye in a normal way so that we are so far apart from each other afterwards without feeling bad or regret. The contact was very difficult for both of us. Maerle mainly reacted to the person I was until January 1 and on the other hand I did not want to be reminded of that person at all. Maerle needed some time, but after she started to see what I was suddenly dealing with and how I reacted to certain situations, I could get a little closer to her feelings. The closer it got to the journey, the closer we got back together. She has said all along that she insisted on taking me to the airport and eventually did. Saying goodbye was tough, we understood each other more than ever, were able to talk to each other better than before and listen to each other much better. We finally had fun again and just wanted to be together again as much as possible. And yet we both knew that I had to continue this journey and that if it was to be the case, we would get back together. She has already planned a vacation here and I hope every day that she pushes that vacation further forward.

The last time I sat in an airplane was a flight of 18 hours so the 2 flights of 3 hours and 8 hours that literally flew by. Friday afternoon at 4 o'clock was my first flight and Saturday morning at 6:00 brazillian time I was standing with backpack and all. Directly outside a man came up to me and asked if I wanted an Uber and I could smoke in his car so well, that was a fairly easy choice. For 600 real (70 euros) a ride of more than 3 hours, but I could easily have paid 20 euros. Now this is not my strongest side anyway and I had only just arrived in the country so it was fine for a me anyway

Bumps of half a meter high and holes 3.5 meters deep. A cycle path in the middle of the highway, without a guardrail with a 2 lane road on the left and a 2 lane road on the right of the cycle path, roads where you are allowed 100 and suddenly there is a speed camera where you are only allowed 40 with those half meter high bumps. Trucks with a load almost falling off or dozens of trucks standing along the road because they did not come up the slope. Here it is all possible, has a gigantic charm and I can really enjoy it. After about 4.5 hours and a cup of coffee at every gas station for Uber Antonio I arrived at my destination.

II hadn't studied Alto Paraiso de Goais for a second or Brazil at all. I knew that the president has nothing to do with corona, that Brazilians can play football well and speak Portuguese and then a large part of the Amozone is there, that's it. So I assumed I didn't see many masks, that it would be 25 to 30 degrees every day and that everything would look tropical ........ To my surprise I saw everything and everyone with a mask far beyond pulled their noses (it is also mandatory everywhere), it was not really very hot or something and the streets, houses and shops were less tropical than I had expected. When I arrived at my destination my first impression was "okay, now then". I was devastated from the trip and from the days / weeks before, I was now somewhere where I could not find anyone except Sander and I had a house with a shower, toilet, 2 cupboards full of books, a single bed, a double bed and a mattress on the floor and a small kitchen outside and a table with some chairs. "Hmm, maybe I underestimated it a bit ..." was my first impression. At first I only lay down in the hammock for fifteen minutes, Sander was not there yet, so I first waited for him and almost immediately went to bed for a few hours.

After having slept for 2 hours, I came out again. In the meantime it was about 22 degrees and I felt a lot better than the 2 hours before. Very quietly I unpacked all my things, I brought my own canvases for the wall from home so that it feels a bit like my own place and then I started preparing evening coals for Sander and me. Delicious, Prepare dinner in a beautiful backyard. The rest of the evening just relaxed, talked and walked a little round to discover the area. Going to sleep reasonably on time had a pretty nice first night.

The next day I woke up and the sense of doubt I had the day before had also completely disappeared. I immediately had the feeling that I had picked up what I had in the weeks leading up to my trip. A feeling of confidence that everything will come my way by itself and that I made the only right choice I could make. I didn't really have any idea what to do with my cameras, but that would also show itself. I was in the place where I wanted to be all this time and I really felt that this is the place where I need to be. First take it easy for a few days, Have not been on holiday for a while so I first land before I really get involved with the question "How can I inspire people?". A few days before I left, I did step into Bitcoin, which I look at a number of times every day and put into real work at most 10 minutes a day. Never knew making money could be this easy. I wonder if that would continue or if it is mainly a bit of beginner's luck. We will see ...